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Friday, December 31, 2010 7:00 pm
lazy listen, ♥  I R LAZI NAO.
6:31 pm
dinner listen, ♥  Nom nom nom, dinner time! :D Nanny cooked my favourite fish cause I cannot eat prawns. :D Back to my books after dinner, I'm almost done! :D Before I go out that is! ^^
6:13 pm
progressIV listen, ♥ 
5:43 pm
wheeeeeeeeeee listen, ♥  I've been rather productive today. :D
5:09 pm
ProgressIII listen, ♥ 
2:58 am
lazy listen, ♥  Why am I not surprised at how lazy I can be? How am I suppose to take a break when I'm progressing at such a slow pace? I deserve the death penalty!
2:39 am
progressII listen, ♥ 
1:37 am
reality listen, ♥  Being lazy has caused me to lose out on so much. I hate myself for constantly being this way. I need to change but I never seem to ever bother to when time passes by. I suck at managing everything at once. I need to slowly let go of the little things in life. I need to forfeit all the things I love in order to achieve. I will be successful. I will enter law school some day and prove my worth. I need to wake up from my slumber and starting pulling up my socks before I fall too far behind and cannot catch up. I will survive, I promise to make it. I have to, its the last thing I ever promised you and I will make things work. I miss you Bestf.
12:01 am
lawwwww listen, ♥  $25,911.60, 4 years, UCL, UK.
Thursday, December 30, 2010 1:07 pm
coooooooooooold listen, ♥  It's sooooooo cold! I shall go get ready and then head to Jurong Point to study before meeting Aiai. Hopefully there's space at Starbucks! Haven't received any text from you since yesterday evening, hope everything's fine.
1:54 am
dilemma listen, ♥  America, Britain, Canada, Ireland, Finland, Australia or New Zealand? /: The next problem - can I make it? /face palm
1:10 am
hmmmmm listen, ♥  So I lost the spark and the motivation to study. Nevermind that, I can continue tomorrow. To make things worse/better (you decide), I'm staring at University standings. /faints Shall find requirements tomorrow. Enough bad stuff in a day. /: I WILL BE PRODUCTIVE TOMORROW! /cross my heart
12:55 am
motivation listen, ♥  Motivation level: -14235698319529455 SCREWED!
12:20 am
progress listen, ♥ 
12:18 am
desire
Wednesday, December 29, 2010 11:51 pm
places listen, ♥  Passing by these places, so much memories were sparked. Raffles Place - KhattarWong. It literally flooded my head, all the memories, all the fun. I really miss those time spent. I really wish we had more time in the office so that we could have done more than we have. Supreme Court - Junior College Law Programme. I wish talks and lectures were shorter and instead more time for leisure and lunch but things wasn't that bad after all. I enjoyed myself soooooo much! Kampong Bahru - Passing by Kellock triggered so much memories. I remember how small I was back then and seeing how much I've grown, I really wish I could turn back time. I promise to work harder than I had. I miss Kellock and all my friends, you too Bestie! Ulu Pandan - PROJECT WORK! It was a dick then but still, we made things work. I miss hanging out with the group and bitching sessions. ): I got lost taking the bus from Eunos, I thought of you and all the silly things we did before, to the point we said goodbye. Somehow, I miss you.
11:00 pm
quotebook listen, ♥  “I’ve never told a lie, and that makes me a liar. I’ve never placed a bet, but we gamble with desire. I’ve never lit a match with intent to start a fire, but recently the flames are getting out of control.”
10:54 pm
plan listen, ♥  Gonna meet Aiai tomorrow! :D /beaming I'm gonna study at Starbucks or Coffee Bean or McCafe before meeting Aiai. :D (Need to satisfy my Starbucks craving.) Okay, I need to start on my work. /whines
10:45 pm
workkkkkkkk listen, ♥ 
5:42 pm
unsound listen, ♥  ANNOYED! AHBENGS SHOULD JUST ROT IN HELL AND DIE! Please get a life cause staring and such wouldn't make you smarter or help you gain employment. Use your fried brains to the best of its ability because it might rust within individuals like you who cannot contribute to this society and would always be labelled PEST! Thank you very much!
1:21 am
procrastination listen, ♥  Procrastination kills people like ME! As much as I want to complete AI by tonight, my unyielding procrastination for the better of me and now, I'm left - stranded and lost. I don't know what to do. /: To stop and go to sleep because I happen to be tired whenever I start doing my work or to ignore and study instead. /: This is killing me slowly but certainly. I'm not done with any revision, I haven't touched my homeworks let alone complete them. I'm screwed, like a thousand and one times when school reopens. So much for wanting to gain the upper hand, so much for trying to source for better notes, so much for trying so hard initially. I must complete AI when I awake if not I'll not sleep for the night. (Ya, right. But I must try. /serious face) Things to complete by 29/12/2010 (Omg, the year is coming to an end so quickly. /face palm)
So much to do, so little time. The clock is ticking, I should get some sleep. Gonna meet Wenting and Godwin tomorrow. GOOOOOOOOODNIGHT! :D
Tuesday, December 28, 2010 10:26 pm
annoying listen, ♥  Some people are just plain annoying, like seriously. IF you have nothing better to do, take out a damn book to read or just spend your time gossiping or bloody study. The invention of the phone - make use of fucking technology. If not, what is it created for? What's the point of having a dumb mobile phone that has all the functions you need yet not being made use of? Use your damn brains to full capacity. I don't care what you say, it doesn't affect me. You pretending and faking stupidity irks me so badly, I wanna kick you in your stomach.
Monday, December 27, 2010 5:12 pm
bleah listen, ♥  I've been so busy with the Christmas preparation, I finally found some time to catch my breath. I'm so tired, I need a break. Can school not start so soon? I'm not done with revision, no where near completion. Neither have I started on my homework. ): This is depressing. /:
Saturday, December 25, 2010 5:15 pm
KhattarWong listen, ♥  HELLO AWESOME PEOPLE! :D This year's Christmas would have been boring without ANY of you. Thank you all for coming, I hope you've enjoyed as much as I did. :D
Monday, December 20, 2010 4:02 pm
snowflakes listen, ♥  The snowflake necklace is soooooo pretty but bloooooooody expensive! ):
3:52 pm
presents listen, ♥  Finally got Nanny her Christmas present. ^^ Haven't touched the book all day, unproductive to the max. Gonna hit the books when I get home. Need to get Mummy's present and my shoes. :D Should think of what I can get for Nanny (something more) and Daddy.
1:29 am
enthusiasm listen, ♥  My enthusiasm for anything just died on me. I don't know what's wrong. I'm feeling all cracked up and insecure. I can't seem to find any inspiration or motivation. I can't seem to be able to find any reasons to continue. I'm tired. I shouldn't be missing you but I am sitting in front of this damn laptop, staring at your profile in hope that you'll come out and sit beside me. To talk to me, to tell me that things haven't changed and it was just a dream. I wish you'll come back, I wish you'll be mine all over again. But I have to let go. Moving on seems so difficult whenever I see your face. I miss you, really do but will it change anything? I need you back in my life. ): When you left I lost a part of me.
1:15 am
love listen, ♥  Why do I keep hiding from the truth? Umi is right - Loving is to risk urself being hurt. That's reality. Accept it.
Sunday, December 19, 2010 11:24 pm
speechless listen, ♥  Will you say that you'll always be the one, who'll take my pain away? Would you be there?
4:13 pm
earrings listen, ♥  I'm sooooo gonna get the Chanel earrings when I have money!
12:45 am
quiz listen, ♥  Apparently my birthday means that I'm stubborn. -.- StubbornStubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious. Not everything is true lorh! -.-
12:17 am
memory listen, ♥  This will always remain as a memory. I miss you Bestf.
Saturday, December 18, 2010 11:38 pm
cut listen, ♥  For the first time in many years, I'm finally finding the house too quiet. I've always thought of the house as a place to bond, for us to run to time after time and an escape from reality. But I guess I'm really wrong. There's no comfort, only sorrow, when all you see if the walls, mirrors, the television, tables, chairs, the altar, the Christmas tree and the presents beneath and beside, staring back at you. Even the laptop's not doing justice. I miss how lively we were as a family. How we're always at home to watch television, to talk about all the random things in life and to tease each other on a daily basis. Now that there's no more joy, what more do you ask for except for them to be happy with whatever they are doing. It's times like this you look back and wonder, what if this and that never happened. It's times like this, you wish you were since a kid in your Mum's arms, crying whenever you're being bullied. It's times like this you wanna let go of all your sorrow and simply drift away. It's times like this, you really realize how much you've grown, and really, it's scaring me. I don't wanna grow up, I still wanna be that smart 7 year old kid with my big brothers and younger brother always there with me. I miss how all of you try putting me to sleep way back then and how you'll sing different lullabies so that I'll drift off to sleep before you close your eyes. And we all bleed to know that we're alive.
Friday, December 17, 2010 11:37 pm
errrrrrrr listen, ♥  Jeremy is being annoying. -.-
Monday, December 13, 2010 11:09 pm
happy listen, ♥  I believe I'm the happiest girl alive today. (: Despite my busy tight schedule, I still managed to squeeze some time to meet Amanda who I haven't seen in a long long time. Thank you for coming by and for waiting with me for the bus which took forever. It's been such a long time since we last gathered as a class and we really need to have that done, soon! Despite the long wait, everything was worth it. (: Random text from the people in Tanglin. It made me feel love and appreciated. It's like, we haven't been there for each other in such a long time, yet our friendship still holds. And to me, I've been successful. I might have lost some friends in the course of having to juggle school work and social life but I believe I've done my utmost best in trying to keep myself afloat. And with people as such, I know I'll do better. I'm happy despite being tired and what not. Today's a day that I wish to remember forever. You know that there are things in life that are absolutely irreplaceable and YOU PEOPLE happen to be in that category. 5n1 reigns forever.
Saturday, December 11, 2010 11:22 pm
maybe listen, ♥  I WOULD REALLY APPRECIATE A BREAK FROM ALL THESE SHIT. Maybe it was a mistake, right from the beginning. Maybe it was a lie, right from the start. Maybe we were dreaming, but now we're awake. Maybe we're just hiding from the truth, cause it hurts to know the answer. Maybe we're just trying too hard, when there's nothing to it. Maybe, just maybe. Life is full of maybe and what if. It would be wonderful if we could remove all these shit from happening. Why can't life be full of wonders instead of hard core misery that I see and find day in and out? This is bloody depressing, I feel like dying. /: LIFE SUCKS!
11:12 pm
你 listen, ♥  就好像失去了自由，终生遗憾。 有多少话想跟你说但却永远找不到你。 想起你对我说的话，我真的觉得自己很没有用因为在你最需要我的时候，我不在你身边陪伴着你。 如果再能和你相处，我答应不会再离你而去。 我一定会留在你身边陪伴着你，陪你一起走到最后。 真的，真的，很想念你。
Sunday, December 05, 2010 4:03 pm
): listen, ♥  This holidays has been a complete flop. I haven't done anything productive, I haven't been very happy, I haven't been myself. Seriously, I wish things could change for the better so that I can feel better about myself. Now the question in mind is, will 2011 be better or worse? Maybe I should just pack up and leave, just study overseas and what not. Such a disaster to be in Singapore at times. So much sorrow, hurt and pain. What more can I ask for other than the rights to prove my worth. Hate how worthless I am, hate how useless I'm labelled as, hate how hard I try but never seem to be successful. Fuck my life, serious. /: Maybe, I should just stop trying and give it all up. I'm tired, of every living shit I go through day in and out.
3:20 pm
upset listen, ♥  Maybe it's really wrong to hold onto KhattarWong. /:
Saturday, December 04, 2010 11:40 am
khattarwong listen, ♥  I MISS KHATTARWONG! ): Honestly, I miss my Mentor and Beatrice. ): |
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